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I always thought that I am perseverant. When I start a thing, I can stick to it. I have strong ability to control myself, so I cannot easily immerse into any irrelevant thing. My girlfriend said I am a little arrogant, but I don’t agree. In my eyes, that is not arrogant, but confident.

These ideas were always bare in my mind, so I can’t feel any change in my habit and everyday life. Now I am gradually aware of the problems. As four years university life goes to the end. A lot of things have been changed. What we are going to face is society. Graduate this year is not an easy thing. To find a job, especially a better paying job is too difficult for us. Compared to others of the same period with me, I am a little lucky for I’ve already found a job in the first term of the senior- year. When I step into the society from school, my feeling is complicated. I want to do well in my job. And also have to bring a good end to my university life. I plan to learn this, and plan to learn that… but nothing has been turned into reality.

After a day’s tire work, I came to my dormitory. The only thing I want to do is to relax and have some fun. So my dream, my work, my plan, my paper…all these things are procrastinated day by day, week by week. It seems that I have dream and goal, but I didn’t start and haven’t got any detailed schedule to realize them. All these seem to be too pale.

I get up late in the morning, go to work, and then come back in the night. As long as I have time, I will surf the internet and doing some useless things. I only get my school assignments ready until the last minute, and until my teachers hasten me.

This me is quite different from the usual one. The changes were gradually, before I can aware that. I thought they can do little harm to me. But I was wrong, totally wrong. In the bottom of my heart, I don’t want to be a man like that at all. But how can I allow it happens.

I am not a perseverant man. I need change!

Last month, I registered in a driving school. Since there were too many people registered, so I had to wait until this week. This week we learned the “theory lessons” as we call it – that including the traffic signs, the traffic police’s gestures, basic knowledge about driving and also knowledge about the automobile. To be frank, these are not very difficult, for the questions in the exam are all the choice question and true-or-false question. However, the cut – off scores are 90 grades out of 100. To many people, this is not that easy.
 
Before the test, I have done a lot of exercises, and every time I can pass it, so I didn’t worry about that. Yesterday morning we have a model test, and I scored 97. This made me more confident about it. Surprisingly, the teacher of the driving school phoned me yesterday afternoon and he asked me to show consideration for people beside me during the test. I never expect a teacher would ask his student to cheat in the exam. This is quite different from that in school. Now I can understand quite well how the school different from the society! I promised him I will if the condition allows me.

This morning, before I got the test site, a man phoned me and told me he is the one who will sit beside me. And then we met. He is more than 40 years old with a big fat body – I appeared so small while standing beside him. From his appearance, I could judge that he is very rich. We chatted a little before the test.

At the beginning of the test, I was doing my own paper. After that I tried my best to tell him how to do it. I found he knows little about the answers. Before I told him, he has already finished part of the test, and I just told him the answer to questions that he didn’t answer. To be frank, I was a little worried at that time. On one hand, I worried about my own test, because some the questions I was not so sure about, and on the other, that was the first time I cheat in an exam, though the invigilators are not so strict. After I helped him filled the blank, we both handed it on. 

Unfortunately, he got 89 – only one grades missed. I was very regretted about that, if only I helped him check the answers he did, the result would be different. I really wanted to help him. This is first time others asked me to do a favor of this kind and they trusted me a lot. But I let them down. I found I was so regretful that just as I didn’t pass it.

Last Sunday, with my girlfriend’s accompany, I went to downtown. That was a beautiful day- it was very sunny and with cool breeze, which really brought us a sense of spring. For even it is April now, here in Wuhu, we can not feel it is spring at all. Continuously, it rained and rained, which made it very cold. Some of us still wore thick coat and sweater, gloves and scarf. In a city with so changeable weather, many people went out in that rare sunny day.

In the square of downtown, I found many people were strolling, chatting and playing. While, some of the kites flied in the sky did catch my eyes, which brought my memory to my childhood. Seeing these kites, my girlfriend also wanted to have a try. So we went to buy it. However, the high price made us give up the idea, and we decided to buy it near our school and fly it next time. With a little pity, we came back.

Today, it was just as sunny as last Sunday, and we decided to fulfill our dream of flying kite. We bought a cheap kite and went to the square in the downtown. Even the sun made us feel a little hot, but we still felt excited. When we got there, there were already a lot of people there. I decided to fly it first, I held the string and run, I was excited to find the kite fly, but it was unsteady at all. It sometimes flied this way, and sometimes that way, and finally, within seconds, it dropped onto the floor. I tried several times, but it made no difference. Then my girlfriend flied it, she did better than me but she still couldn’t fly it long. I summarized the reason of the failure. It was partly because the wind was too slow, and partly because we have no skill in flying it. 

Things we watched so beautiful when we experienced ourselves, is not that beautiful. We try our best to fly the kite high, and we wait for the good wind to fly it, but none of them was realized. We’ve played the whole afternoon, and we both felt very tired, but we still didn’t have the real feeling of “flying kite” as we felt in our childhood. To be frank, we both got a little bit disappointed. As a result, we decided to try again next time.

These days, on my way back to school, I saw many people dance with music. For several nights, I found people exercising. Among them, there were both old people and young people, both man and woman. This is not an interesting thing, yeah? However, what I want to say is that Chinese people’s exercising concept is changing stealthily.

Several years ago, I’ve read books about people’s exercising habit. It said that Chinese people like to exercise in the morning, while western people like to exercise in the nightfall. These are quite different ways and which one is more helpful? The expert suggests people had better not exercise in the morning, because in the morning, the carbon dioxide in the air is the most around 6 o’clock. Before, we didn’t pay too much attention to that. We thought exercise is good for our health, so every people begin to exercise. They especially like to go to the park in the morning. They want to enjoy the “fresh” air there. But in fact, exercise that time is not good for their health.

Now people begin to aware the problem gradually. Many people begin to exercise in the nightfall, not the morning time. Another good phenomenon is that more and more young people begin to aware the importance of exercise. they begin to join this group.

This morning I got up a little bit earlier than I usually did. Before I went to work, there are still several minutes left. I didn’t know what to do. Occasionally, I saw a book on my roommate’s desk, so I picked it up and random chose a page to read. It tells a foreign host’s story in China, which I found is very interesting. I felt very delighted for I haven’t read books for a long time since I’ve got a computer. I work on computer, study on computer, and play on computer, nearly sleep on computer.

Probably sometimes I can let myself rest a little or just return to nature. Things delighted we before can not attract us any longer, but as soon as we pick them up, they can still bring us happiness. We are too busy with living everyday…

Last night, when I surf the internet in the school dormitory, I suddenly heard the noise outside. I overheard that one student killed himself by jumping from the top of the dormitory building and the student lived in the same building with me. So I went out and saw it from the window. I saw a dead body sleep peacefully on the ground, when it was raining. Probably this is the mourning from the sky.

This is the first time I come across this kind of scene. I’ve heard about suicides many times, but this time is different. It is so near to me. I saw the guy lying on the ground without knowing anything – just let the rain sprinkle on him, and leave us pity and sorrow. I don’t why he did that. Is this the only road? I don’t know how his parents would react after heard this news by a midnight telephone.

This is also the first time I feel that life is so fragile. Whatever you achieve, whatever you success. You life can be ended in seconds.

I just think that life is so beautiful and why some people choose this road? Even we are not so happy and not so satisfied at the moment, there is no need for us to choose death, for every one of us only have one life. Even we have a future life, we don’t know what it would be, and we don’t know whether we are ourselves or not.

Life is our own. It just likes a tree. We should take care of it heart and soul to make it blossom and bear fruits.

The two stories I am going to talk about are actually about Chairman Mao’s statue.

These two stories happened in 1993, When was the 100 year’s anniversary of Chairman Mao’s birth. One of the stories is…

For Chairman Mao’s statue was made in Nanjing, and it should be carried to Shaoshan, Hunan, Chairman Mao’s hometown. When the truck passed by Jiangxi, it suddenly got stopped, even the driver hadn’t expected that. The driver tried to restart the truck, but he still couldn’t start it after several tries. He was told by the locals that Jiangxi is the start of Chairman Mao’s revolutionary career, probably he want to stay there overnight, so the driver stopped there for a night. Next day, the driver easily started the truck without any repairment.

Another story happened during the inauguration. That was March, but what incredible was that all the azaleas in Shaoshan blossomed out. You know normally azaleas only blossom in April. All the people cheered that “Chairman Mao is back”. Also that day, the sun and the moon appeared in the sky at the same time.

I still don’t know whether the two stories are true or not, for I didn’t witness that. I am not superstitious. But I still get a little believe that - I don’t know why. Just before I post this blog, I watched a short video about the stories. I don’t care about it is true or not, I know I felt esteemed and respectful during I watched that. Chairman Mao is a spiritual symbol to us now. We’d like to believe that he has a power to make good changes – to our life, to our country, to any other things.



I try to add the video on, but I don't know how to. So I just offer the link for someone who interest in it: http://www.56.com/u28/v_Mjc1NDY1Njk.html

Till now, I haven’t traveled by train for many times, but I find an interesting thing is that there are a lot of promotions on the train – all kinds of things, from beautiful souvenir to cups and socks, etc. In order to promote the things, some of the train staffs will tell a lot of interesting things about it, such as stories and anecdotes. For instance, this Saturday, on my trip to Nanjing, there is a girl promoting a kind of golden card, which is to commemorate Chairman Mao. That golden card costs 10 yuan. I thought there won’t be too many people buy that, for we seems to have a common sense that things sold on train are normally much expensive than those sold in shops. In order to promote this golden card, the girl told us two myths about Chairman Mao – that happened during the inauguration of Chairman Mao’s statue. Both of the stories seemed to be mysterious (I haven’t made sure about the story, so I’ll told you next time). I don’t know whether the stories are true or not, but this is the first time I heard about them. They really interest me. 

I like this kind of stuff, which makes me not feel lonely during the trip. Besides, I can know something about the local culture and broad my horizon. Probably this is also Chinese culture, for it is so big that it always take even days to travel from one place to another. So it is important to have some fun during the trip. I expect to know what people do on train in foreign countries. Hope someone could tell me something about that.

An exciting news for me these two days is that my website English Home can be searched in Google. This really delighted me, for my purpose of creating this site is to make more people know it.

Those past few days to me were gloomy and awful. Besides the job, I had to prepare for the TEM 8 ( Test for English Majors)，Test of Interpretation and the opening report for school paper. To prepare all these stuff, I felt exhausted. While after I looking at the answers to the TEM 8 on the internet, I feel desperate. I know that I cannot pass it. I wake up from dreams. There is no worse news to me than this – the test cannot be more important. I aware that I paid too little attention to this. There would be another test waiting for me this Sunday – I have no confidence at all..

After I found a job, the time that I spent on study became much less. Probably I deserved the result. English home is a good beginning for me, I’ve said this one month ago. While in order to study and work, I didn’t update the site for nearly a month only to find that I failed all the exams, it seems ridiculous to me. 

In China, we always said that what you lose on the swings you get back on the roundabouts. I have lost one battle, but I hope that I can use this site to improve my English. I believe I can do better. I hope all the people who visit this site can supervise me. 

I am not a man that can loss so easily!